The Climb

It’s been a busy week for me.  Month-end at work, have to close the books, late nights every night, snow storms, commuting in the snow, shoveling, oh and a nasty cold thrown in there and all of it was so draining.  I’ve had little time to myself after work to plan for the next day or just to relax and unwind.  But I keep trudging forward, day by day, trying to keep with my food plan.  The exercise plan – well that went out the window this week.  Got very little in and am feeling it.  I cannot wait until spring shows up and I can truly get back outside and move more. 

Anyways, I’m trying to remember to celebrate how far I’ve come this year in my weight loss plan and my move more plan.  I try every day to keep positive and when I heard this song, The Climb by Miley Cyrus, on the radio tonight driving home it just so struck me.  The words so describe where I am RIGHT NOW….it almost brought me to tears.   I do think a lot about not being successful and not reaching my weight loss goal.  I still hear that voice in my head telling me I just won't be able to do it.  I just won't ever get to my ultimate goal.  But I also think a lot of the successes I’ve had.  I know this will sound weird but some days I truly cannot believe how different I feel in this body.  I haven’t been at this weight in over 20 years I think and it is so unfamiliar to me.  I feel good.  I just think my mind is still trying to catch up to the new body I walk around with.  I still have a ways to go, but need to refocus and get moving, oh and, I really need to shut up that voice in my head that says that I may not ever reach my goals. 

I’m making the changes day by day that I need to make in order to have this be the LAST time I have to fight this battle.  But honestly, some days, I do feel that my faith is shaking, and I think I’ll never be able to do it.  Thankfully those times don’t last too long and I have some awesome friends and family and even co-workers who remind me almost daily how they notice the changes in me and congratulate me on it.   I know there always will be those “mountains”, and I have to remember that it doesn’t really matter what’s on that other side, my “ultimate” number, or how fast I get there, it is really the climb, the changes I’m making every day, that are important.  Someone please remind me of that if I ever say that I can’t do this anymore. 

 

THE CLIMB

Miley Cyrus

 I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on